I'm incredibly upset today.
Things are strange. I don't even know why i'm feeling like this.
My friend Kory has posted he's died on his facebook profile and no one can get in touch with him to know if it's real or not.
I'm absolutely worried. He's always threatened to kill himself. We've always talked him out of it. Sometimes thought he was trying to get attention. Which i didn't mind so much because well when your alone all you want is attention from some one anyone. I just hope he hasn't done anything seriously stupid. I will find his soul wherever it may be and i will slap him silly. I'm really worried.
And on top of that i still cannot find a job. i have no phone. My life is spiraling. I should probably go to the doctors for depression. But i wont.
I'm not suicidal or anything. I just can't function correctly i guess. I hate feeling the way i do right now. its like a pain i can't make go away. it hurts absolutely. Nothing is curing it either. I cannot draw. i cant do it. i suck. nothing comes to mind when i pick up that paper. or when i go on devmuro even though i really suck at that thing. guess im taking another break from drawing. i need to focus on getting a job. how do you get a job when you have no transportation, no money, no phone, no good clothes for interviews... and absolutely no experience working anywhere???
if someone can answer that question... in detail with links and stuff... i think i would be semi happier! thanks for listening.